First Name: Jodi Middle Name: Alayne Birthday: 10/18/88 Eyes: blue w/ yellow around my pupil Hair: dark brown Fav color: right now, orange Day/Night: night Fave Food: right now, anything edible. FRIENDS AND LIFE Do you ever wish you had another name? yes Do you like anyone? ..no. i'm done(for real this time) Which one of your friends acts the most like you? deanna Who's the loudest? um...allie. Who have you known the longest of your friends? emily Who's the shyest: emily Are you close to any family members? yes When you cried the most: end of second session What's the best feeling in the world: receiving genuine applause Worst Feeling: when your "best friends" who you've known for almost 10 years start to completely ignore you. i wonder if that's a hint. FINISH EACH SENTENCE: Let's walk on the: sidewalk. Let's run through: a puddle Let's look at the: puppies What a nice: night Where did all the: honesty go? Why can't you: pick up your fucking phone? Silly, little: nincompoop. Tell me: a bedtime story HAVE YOU: Ran away from home: yes, what little kid hasnt? Pictured your crush naked: i dont think i have a crush right now Skipped school: not really, no Broken someone's heart: yeah right. Been in love: yes Cried when someone died: yes Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have: sort of Done something embarrassing: duh...i'm me. Done a drug: no Cried in school: sure RANDOM Your Good Luck Charm: actually i dont have one. they're spontaneous. like if something good happens to me one day and i'm wearing a certain something, that turns in to my "good luck" charm for the next thing i need "luck" for. Person You Hate Most: that wouldnt be nice to say on here now would it? Best Thing That Has Happened: sdm 05 Ice Cream: cookies and cream WHO Makes you laugh the most: KRISSI, lauryn, and jaclyn Makes you smile: a whole buncha people Has A Crush On You: no one ever has a crush on jodi. are you on crack? Do You Have A Crush On Someone: no HAVE YOU EVER Fallen for your best friend?: well..in a way...but i'm done with him. Made out with JUST a friend?: no Kissed two people in the same day?: no Had sex with two different people in the same day?: haha no Been rejected: yyyup Been in love?: yeah... Been used?: lol probably Done something you regret?: of course Cheated on someone?: no. Been called a tease: nno WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON... You touched?: my mom You talked to on the phone?: meredyth You hugged?: mom You instant messaged?: ummm...deanna? You kissed?: who knows You yelled at?: my dad Who text messaged you?: prolly deanna Who broke your heart?: i wouldnt say he "broke" my heart Who told you they loved you?: my mom
i'm mad at life lately. it's like..messy. but i just cleaned my room. and i think i'll be able to sleep because it's clean. my drawers aren't clean. they're still bulging, but i feel like because i can see my floor, it won't matter.. maybe my life will be clean now...at least on the outside, like my room is.
I canNOT even believe it's been two years already. Two years since he died. It's sort of creepy, not seeing him in school when I see his sister every single day in english. I hate seeing his friends every day...all hanging out with totally different people. It's as though after he died, the whole group of friends broke up, and his birthday and today bring them together again. Why should the death of their best friend be the one thing that brings them back together again. Would things have been different?
I guess I'll never really understand. I still don't understand why he died. I still get that empty feeling in my chest when I think about him sometimes. Why though?
Again, I guess I'll never really understand or accept it.
*Rest In Peace* *Joey Buldo-Licciardi* *9/28/90-11/4/03* I will never ever forget you...
10 Favorites: Favorite Color: orange, pink, blue Favorite Food: right now, it's my grandma's egg salad Favorite Band: THE BEATLES Favorite Movie: Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants Favorite Sport to Watch: Baseball Favorite Sport to Play: basketball, football Favorite Season: fall(because of the weather), summer (because of the stuff i do) Favorite Day Of the Week: saturday...and i have a weird thing for wednesdays Favorite Ice Cream: cookies and cream Favorite Time of Day: the second school ends
9 Currents... Current Mood: realllyy mellow Current Taste: ...my spit? Current Desktop Picture: nothing..stupid laptops! Current Nail Color: neutral Current Time: 3:20, Current Surroundings: minge's room Current Annoyance(s): my sinusesssss (getting better though..i had surgery) Current Thought: i can't wait to color later lol
8 Firsts... First Best friend: valari widder First Kiss: mike First Screen Name: galloper116 First Pet: hermit crabs, shirley and mark First Piercing: ears First Crush: this kid josh at an old old sleepaway camp First Concert: jingle ball first alcoholic drink: malibu
7 Lasts... Last Cigarette: never Last Drink: water Last Car Ride: to school Last Kiss: like, more than a year ago Last Movie Seen: SotTP Last Phone call: my mom Last CD Played: i have no idea...prolly songs for a new world
6 Have You Evers... Have You Ever Dated One Of Your Best Friends: sort of..he became my best friend Have You Ever Broken the Law: yes Have You Ever Been Arrested: nope Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: nope Have You Ever Been on TV: yes Have You Ever Kissed Someone You Didn't Know: no
5 Things... -Things You're wearing: jeans, green sortofshort light light sweatshirt w/ a long top underneath -Things You Did Last Night: ate, watched tv, colored, slept -Things You Can't Live Without: music, stagedoor, my friends -Things You Do When Your bored: color, chat on AIM, tv -Things You Dislike: my sinuses
4 Places You've Been Today: school Yesterday: temple Out of the state: fla, cali, co, ct, ny, ut, wy, az...much much more Out of the country: israel, bahamas
3 People You Can Tell Anything To: deanna mike kyle
2 Choices... Black or White: black Hot or Cold: hot
i know this is sort of random and out of the blue. but i was just kind of thinking really hard about the fact that i have to go to college in two years, audition in 1 year, get into a college in 1 year.
and then i thought
what am i thinking? am i honestly good enough to be able to do what i want to?
i know i have the drive. if i didn't, i wouldnt pile myself up with shows and dance and voice and rehersals every year and love every second of it.
but seriously, am i really talented enough to get in to a good school out of thousands of other kids? why pick me over them? i'm not prettier than that many people. and i know a lot of you havent really heard or seen me do any kind of work in shows. but you've probably seen other kids who are getting ahead in what i want to do who are a thousand times better than i will ever be. it's so scary. i don't know what i will do with myself if i can't do this in my life. i dont see myself doing anything else other than this.
I was oddly upset when I heard of the death of a 5-year-old boy I watched a program about on TLC. It was on over the summer entitled "Face Eating Tumor". His name was Novemthree and he was 3 years old(and turned 4) when the whole process began. He lived in Batam and flew with his father a really long way so that he could get the proper care. He had numerous painful surgeries and he got fevers throughout his ordeal. In the end, his face went from night to day. It was absolutely incredible. He was the cutest little boy ever and he always kept in good spirits. Even when he resembled something out of a science fiction movie, you could tell that underneath the swollen misshaped face was a sweet face. And that it was.
The program was on again tonight, so I figured I'd catch the end of it again. I was just about to change the channel when a message came up on the screen. It said that he'd passed away September of 2005 due to respiratory problems. This poor little boy and his whole family went through so much-happiness, sadness, worry, excitement; all of it just went down the drain.
So, rest in peace, Novemthree. I wish I could reach out to your family in some way. Just so they knew that there was someone in America rooting for you.
It is about an extremely close friend of mine who I've known for quite a few years now.
Actually, it's not even really about her- it's moreso about what happens to her.
What happens to my best friend is this: she likes a boy. he leads her on and they get close. for a few days, things are perfect. then, out of no where, he starts treating her like shit. she gets really upset, and as much as i try to help, i know i can never make the hurt stop and that just really sucks the big one.
i hope all of the boys who have hurt my best friend read this at some point in their lives. ready?
she's sweet.funny.caring.kind.hilarious.gorgeous.cute.humored.outgoing.polite.an amazing dancer.has a great sense of style.thinks about other people than herself.will go out of her way to make you happy.is more than happy to help you with a problem.always makes you smile.SO fun to be around.is amazing at going to the mall with.knows how to include everyone.knows how to be an individual.not afraid of being herself.
i could go on forever. why can't she just get the respect she deserves?
fuck you, boys who've hurt her. you're unfair little scum bags with no hearts. she's better than all of you by a mile. she deserves to be treated like a princess.
that's all, really.
***i'm in the midst of a new lj...please be patient! i'll get it done asap and start updating again soon!
10 Favorites... Favorite Color: blue Favorite Food: kraft macaroni and cheese (which i had for the first time in over a year last night, thank you) Favorite Song: don't ask me this question. ever. Favorite Movie: see previous answer Favorite Sport: dance! and swimming Favorite Season: summer Favorite Day Of the Week: saturday..and i have a weird thing for wednesdays Favorite Ice Cream Flavour: cookies and cream Favorite Time of Day: RIGHT when the sun starts to set
9 Currents... Current Mood: annoyed Current Taste: ...my spit? Current Clothes: stagedoor shirt and yellow shorts Current Desktop Picture: jonathan being an amazing dancer Current Toenail Color: orange Current Time: 11:53 Current Surroundings: my room Current Annoyance(s): that fact that i have to go to florida tomorrow Current Thought: i really don't want to go tomorrow. my mom is being pissy.
8 Firsts... First Best Friend: emily rothstein! First Kiss: mike h. First Screen Name: galloper116 First Pet: my evil, evil hamster,dina. First Piercing: ears, age 5 or 6 First Crush: hahaha--mike d. in first grade First Music: old macdonald (funny story: when i was like, 1, during a roshhashannah survice, i started singing "eeieeioo" out of the blue. the end.) First Car: not yet...SOOOON!!
7 Lasts..... Last Cigarette: never ever ever. Last Drink: a sip of water like, an hour ago. Last Car Ride: home from the yogurt place Last Kiss: real kiss? very long ago. last just kiss, probably from jacob over the summer. Last Movie Seen: american pie Last Phone Call: w/ deanna at like, 6 Last CD Played: nooo idea
6 Have You Evers.... Have You Ever Dated One Of Your Best Friends: yes Have You Ever Broken the Law: im a partner in crime. Have You Ever Been Arrested: no Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: nope Have You Ever Been on TV: i think when i was at a baseball game once Have You Ever Kissed Someone You Didn't Know: no.
I'm making a new live journal...it's not ready yet so keep me friended in this one. when it's ready i'll let you know. it's still going to be public..i was just kind of sick of this one. i think what i'm gonna do is look back on all of the entries and put the ones i want to keep under a cut in the new one just so i have them.
So steen came over for a while last night. I love her...holy shit she's so fucking funny when she tells stories about her friends. hahaha. oh man. we had fun on the chairs upstairs and ate dinner and just talked. thennn...
Kim IMed me and was like, COME OVER! So after a lot of stuff(hahaha) we ended up going over to kim's house...SOOOOOO good to see her. I was mucho happy. We all chatted for a while, and then steen left kim's house and I slept at Kim's. We just talked a lot, which is really what we needed to do. Then today we went out to lunch and to the mall and stuff...I had a really good time. I think I'm going over there on Sunday to see Derek and stuff. YAY!
Okay so I'm gonna get to making that new journal...byebyee.
Alright so I guess I should finally contribute a good update to this thing.
Stagedoor- Well, I don't really know what I can say. It was nothing less than amazing. I was in Fame first session as Miss Greta Bell, the dance teacher. I got to sing a killer duet with Callie, who is AMAZZZINNGG. I got really sick of that show so fast because I know it so well, so I felt kind of bad. Oh well, every experience is a good one for what I want to do I guess. The director situation was interesting, being that he left...and then we got a new one and the show started to get really good. Haha. Basically it turned out to be much better than anticipated, so I was very happy.
Second session was unbelieveable. I got in to master acting again, and I was in master dance. So my schedule was OTC, master dance, master acting every day. I ended up getting a TERRIBLE sinus infection at one point, and I had to go to the doctor twice. It was the worst one I've ever had. I got better though so it's all good. I was in the show Follies, and Jeff Murphy directed it. That was my favorite show I've ever been in, mainly for the experience. I was Carlotta Champion. She sings the song "I'm Still Here", and it was the greatest time ever. I loved every single person in that show and our cast was SO crazily talented. I had so much fun.
Our Time Cabaret--OTC...I have nothing to say. Fucking amazing.
30th Anneversary--once again, nothing to say. I have never felt so amazing on stage before...totally crazy.
What else... I haven't been doing much lately. Just recuperating from the past 6 weeks. Ive been sleeping and relaxing a lot. I went to dinner with Mike last night and we had fun. It was so good to see him again and just hang out with him. On Sunday I believe I'm going to lunch with Kim. I'm not sure where we're going yet...I should probably get on that and ask her about that. I haven't seen her in a really long time. I haven't seen anyone in a really long time. I'm always SO busy during the year that I have no time for anything...nor do I have a car, being that I'm not 17 yet. Once I can drive I'll definitely get to see more people more often, esp. Kim. I wish we could see each other more. Hopefully during the rest of the summer we can get together some more.
Well, nothing else to really say. Nothing too interesting has been happening lately. Hopefully there will be some excitement sooner or later so that my entries aren't so boring!!
A - age you got your first kiss: 15 B - band listening to right now: Elton John..hehe C - crush: nobody at the moment D - doing at the moment: this survey E - easiest person to talk to: Kira or Mike F - favorite bands at the moment: My Private Nation, Matchbox 20, etc... G - gummy bears or gummy worms: wormmss!!! H - hometown: River Edge, NJ I - instruments: sort of piano K - kids: eventually L - last person you were pissed off at: myself for sucking at dance tonight M - Madly In Love With Which Color: orange N - nicknames: Jode, Jodes, Jojo, Jodles, Jo, Jodi Blue..more that i can't think of O - one wish: succeeding on Broadway P - phobia[s]: sort of spiders, thunderstorms, other people's spit Q - favorite quote: well ONE of them is "lord knows at least i've been there..." R - reason to smile: Stagedoor Manor. S - song you sang last: Somebody T - Time you woke up today: 11:36 U - unknown fact about me: when i can't sleep, i find old books to read that i read when i was in like, 3rd grade. V - vegetable you hate: arugla W - worst habit(s): BITING MY NAILS--if any of you know a really good way of stopping, tell me. X - x-rays you've had: ankle, knee, ankle again, wrist, middle finger, thumb, hip...maybe more? Y - yummy food : all pasta, pickles Z - zodiac sign : Libra